To The End

He calls the mansion not a house but a tomb.
He's always choking from the stench and the fume.
The wedding party all collapsed in the room.
So send my resignation to the bride and the groom.
Let's go down!
This elevator only goes up to ten.
He's not around.
He's always looking at men
Down by the pool.
He doesn't have many friends.
As they are
Face down and bloated snap a shot with the lens.


If you marry me,
Would you bury me?
Would you carry me to the end?

(So say goodbye) to the vows you take
(And say goodbye) to the life you make
(And say goodbye) to the heart you break
And all the cyanide you drank.

i'm still waiting for their new album. :( and maybe someone else too.

Vanilla Twilight

Someone reminded me about this song i used to listen to. But now that i've lost you, i realised that the lyrics to this song is so meaningful. I'm going to share a part of the song to you.

It's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly.

I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

Life

Life has to go on does'nt it?
Or does it?

Really dont know what to do without you, today i seem souless and empty. Everyone is asking me whether am i alright. I'm far from alright, in fact i dont seem to see alright in my life anymore.

Enough about me, now onto you.

I know it has been hard on you these few days coping with your illnesses and our problems. I heard that your sickness is gone. Spoke with your brother a little while back and found that you went out. At least you're doing much better than me, all alone cooped up at home aimlessly. Hope that after this incident, he can start treating you well and not take you for granted. Shower her with all your love and care, Eric. I'm counting on you.

Finally i felt the pain you had one year ago and now its my turn.
Finally i'm crying as i type all these out of my heart.

I'm still waiting for your return whether you want it or not.
I'm always by your side, always caring for you.

Yes i know you heard it alot of times now and this is how i felt
when you spammed me with all your sorries.

If you can sacrifice leaving me for my own good, there's no
reason i cannot sacrifice my entire life just waiting for you.

I hope you understand that.

11.10PM

''okay tell me now, honestly, do you still like me or do you like him?''

''him''

Officially dead.
Thanks for all the lies you've gave me.
Just wanted to know why did you lie to me.
Some where in the future, if you have any problems, feel free to come back to me.

(P.S. I hate you for all the things you've done to me)

Untitled.

Its that dagger i see infront of my heart again. It has already pierced into my skin and exposed my blood to the oxygen outside of my body. But this dagger is no ordinary dagger, its a dagger that you gave me. Out of so many people i might think of giving me a dagger, it was you. The pain is beyond any words that can be used in this scenario. I guess if you really put the blade in more, i wont have the strength and determination to pull it out of my heart anymore.

I'm not asking for your pitiness in this post, i just hope that you will make the right choice and not ending up hurting yourself again and again. This is just a post about how i feel in my heart now.

Foolishly Childish.

I dont even know why am i blogging about you. I can say i dont know much about you, however for the things you have done today had utterly killed off the respect and pity i have for you. Why do u have to impersonate someone to talk to me? Why cant you just talk face to face with me? Why do u want to find out the truth so badly to even hurt the one you loved. You broke her heart so many times and yet asked her to forgive her every single time she wanted to leave you. Dont you personally think it is unfair to her own decision? Do you ever care for her feelings or just wanted to have a relationship with her so that others may think highly of you? Which guy would never ask his girl out for a movie after so long in a relationship? Yes i am pointing my crosshair dead centered at you, ET. If you want me to continue down the list, i can type whole day but i am disgusted by your childishness.

By hurting her, you did not just broke her heart but you made my day a living hell too do you realise that? You asked her to tell me to stop making things into a battle. Well just in case you are 'blur' again, i am not going to give up her and i will never give her up, nothing will make me give up her not even if i die. Yes as long as i am still breathing she will always be the one i loved dearly. So 'stop making things into a battle?' the battle has already begun since i returned to her life.

2010!

2010 is here! That means mid term break is gonna be over! =( sighh
this 2 weeks fly past faster then i thought. Just came back from my trip a few days ago but i'm to lazy to update u guys about the trip. Maybe when i'm free then i'll upload pics up. =.= dam blardee alot of pics.