you're my still fantasy

if you need someone, you're feeling blue
if you wait for love and you're alone

if you wana cry, cry on my shoulder
if you need someone, who cares for you
if you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
i'll show you what real love can do

you are my favourite hello
and my hardest goodbye

through the storms, you go leaving all you've known.
through the storms, i'm searching for a way to get to you.

gotta let you know, i knew what i did wasn't clever...
but me and you we're meant to be together.
so let me in...give me another chance.

back to the time you and me had just begun..
when i was still your number one?

Yes. The moon is full tonight again..but i'm all alone to see it once again..

I'll let you go.

Ai yi ge ren, yao gen ta zai yi qi, jiu shi wei le yao rang ta kai xin.
Er wo xian zai, fan de ni hen tou tong, ni jue de ying gai bi kai wo,
na wo jiu ying gai zhou, mian de ni gen shang xin. Ni yao gai she
me, jiu gai she me, jui zhong yao shi yao rang ni zhi zi kai xing.

Moon, Cloud, Me

These past few days, i cant see my moon. Something is wrong, something is very wrong. The cloud has blocked my view...now the only thing is this dark and cold sky. I feel so alone, without my moon, i feel so lost. I have always scolded the moon for being too "toot"(dumb) but i did not really imagine that it will be toot enough just to let the cloud block me. Although the cloud blocked her from me, i though i could see some kind of signal from the moon, maybe shine brighter and let your moonlight seep past the clouds? But it never happened, that is...for now. Maybe the moon is tired, it just want to stay put for awhile. There are a few days in a month that we cant see the moon, let this time be that few days..let time save this. Yes. Time can only tell now. So Wind, come forth and help me, help me blow the cloud away. Wind i will wait for your arrival, i have time, i have confidence and i have the faith that you will come, one day.

Looking into the future.

Time, is going by, so much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of here with you
Now I'm wondering why I've kept this bottled inside
So I'm starting to regret not selling all of it to you
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
You're never gonna be alone, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands
'Cause forever I believe
That there's nothing I could need but you
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on
We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

Oh, you've gotta live every single day
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away, could be our only one
You know it's only just begun, every single day
Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Tomorrow never comes

Time is going by so much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on
We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

I'm gonna be there always
I won't be missing a word all day
I'm gonna be there always
I won't be missing a word all day

Just wanted to tell you, it really felt good to see you again...i know you're still sad deep down
inside. I even felt my heart ached when your sis said that her family women are all having relationship problems other that you. I hope that you'll forget the painful past and carry on. I'll be here for you, always. Im also looking forward for you to study for your degree. Work hard so that we can make it a reality! =) Forever missing you ~ <3

To The End

He calls the mansion not a house but a tomb.
He's always choking from the stench and the fume.
The wedding party all collapsed in the room.
So send my resignation to the bride and the groom.
Let's go down!
This elevator only goes up to ten.
He's not around.
He's always looking at men
Down by the pool.
He doesn't have many friends.
As they are
Face down and bloated snap a shot with the lens.


If you marry me,
Would you bury me?
Would you carry me to the end?

(So say goodbye) to the vows you take
(And say goodbye) to the life you make
(And say goodbye) to the heart you break
And all the cyanide you drank.

i'm still waiting for their new album. :( and maybe someone else too.

Vanilla Twilight

Someone reminded me about this song i used to listen to. But now that i've lost you, i realised that the lyrics to this song is so meaningful. I'm going to share a part of the song to you.

It's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly.

I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

Life

Life has to go on does'nt it?
Or does it?

Really dont know what to do without you, today i seem souless and empty. Everyone is asking me whether am i alright. I'm far from alright, in fact i dont seem to see alright in my life anymore.

Enough about me, now onto you.

I know it has been hard on you these few days coping with your illnesses and our problems. I heard that your sickness is gone. Spoke with your brother a little while back and found that you went out. At least you're doing much better than me, all alone cooped up at home aimlessly. Hope that after this incident, he can start treating you well and not take you for granted. Shower her with all your love and care, Eric. I'm counting on you.

Finally i felt the pain you had one year ago and now its my turn.
Finally i'm crying as i type all these out of my heart.

I'm still waiting for your return whether you want it or not.
I'm always by your side, always caring for you.

Yes i know you heard it alot of times now and this is how i felt
when you spammed me with all your sorries.

If you can sacrifice leaving me for my own good, there's no
reason i cannot sacrifice my entire life just waiting for you.

I hope you understand that.

11.10PM

''okay tell me now, honestly, do you still like me or do you like him?''

''him''

Officially dead.
Thanks for all the lies you've gave me.
Just wanted to know why did you lie to me.
Some where in the future, if you have any problems, feel free to come back to me.

(P.S. I hate you for all the things you've done to me)

Untitled.

Its that dagger i see infront of my heart again. It has already pierced into my skin and exposed my blood to the oxygen outside of my body. But this dagger is no ordinary dagger, its a dagger that you gave me. Out of so many people i might think of giving me a dagger, it was you. The pain is beyond any words that can be used in this scenario. I guess if you really put the blade in more, i wont have the strength and determination to pull it out of my heart anymore.

I'm not asking for your pitiness in this post, i just hope that you will make the right choice and not ending up hurting yourself again and again. This is just a post about how i feel in my heart now.

Foolishly Childish.

I dont even know why am i blogging about you. I can say i dont know much about you, however for the things you have done today had utterly killed off the respect and pity i have for you. Why do u have to impersonate someone to talk to me? Why cant you just talk face to face with me? Why do u want to find out the truth so badly to even hurt the one you loved. You broke her heart so many times and yet asked her to forgive her every single time she wanted to leave you. Dont you personally think it is unfair to her own decision? Do you ever care for her feelings or just wanted to have a relationship with her so that others may think highly of you? Which guy would never ask his girl out for a movie after so long in a relationship? Yes i am pointing my crosshair dead centered at you, ET. If you want me to continue down the list, i can type whole day but i am disgusted by your childishness.

By hurting her, you did not just broke her heart but you made my day a living hell too do you realise that? You asked her to tell me to stop making things into a battle. Well just in case you are 'blur' again, i am not going to give up her and i will never give her up, nothing will make me give up her not even if i die. Yes as long as i am still breathing she will always be the one i loved dearly. So 'stop making things into a battle?' the battle has already begun since i returned to her life.

2010!

2010 is here! That means mid term break is gonna be over! =( sighh
this 2 weeks fly past faster then i thought. Just came back from my trip a few days ago but i'm to lazy to update u guys about the trip. Maybe when i'm free then i'll upload pics up. =.= dam blardee alot of pics.